I spent the past week feeling extremely pissed off, which isnt really a good way to spend ur life, if u wanna live longer. However, allow me to vent my frustrations a bit.
Previous week, because some idiotic cpt decided to skip his ict and vanish into thin air, co decided that a few 2lts shd tag along the ict to relieve the nsmen lta of a bit of workload. It did not help that at the point of time, i was jus right in front of him. so whoosh before i knew it the arrow hit me nicely at point blank. well, it happened that this is no ordinary exercise but one dealing with some new stuff which none of us going had touched before. so i had to waste half a day learning how to assemble it. nvm.
come monday this week, i realised that out of all who had been arrowed, i was the only one who had complied readily. hence, i was the only one going. nvm. so out we went, and come tues, we realised that there were so many thing regarding the eqpt not taught to us. the nsmen lta ord-ed 5 yrs ago, so was pretty out of touch with ops. same for myself, who haven't touched anything related since last yr, and had almost returned 100% back to my instructor. so basically, the exercise was a big screw up where ops was concerned, and before the debrief with the higher ups were due to commence, the nsmen had out processed.
so wed night i reached home past 11. thur morning i reached camp at 7 as usual and started my day long planning for the debrief, and was screwed big time for things that did not go right and was not taught to us. all the "you mean you didn't know that??" kept popping up. I cant for my life know something which hadnt been previously taught to me.ok nvm. so thur night i reached home at 10, and only had my dinner then, and fri morning reached at 7 and proceeded to print out everything required for the debrief. and later, i was embarrassed in front of everyone and made to "admit my mistake" because apparently my boss contradicted me in front of everyone and i cldnt possibly contradict him back and admit that we screwed up. nvm. and got a scolding because i missed out one portion which was inconsequential to the entire debrief. nvm.
got back to camp and realised that i had been scheduled for one weekend and one weekday duty, less than a month before im due to ord. and i haven't even started clearing my leave. what makes it worse is that, i havent done both duties before, so i wld have to understudy. the weekend and the weekday duties are diff duties, which means i wld have to understudy twice, which effectively makes it 4 duties, less than a month before im due to ord. to make things worse, when i brought the matter up, nobody gives a shit and someone high up insinuated that im trying to shirk my responsibiity, which is unbecoming of an officer. and that i shd try to solve my bloody problems myself like swapping with the other people myself. which is bloody crap.
and the debrief is not over yet. theres another one coming up, and im supposed to make up a story and sit down there and get screwed on behalf of the nsmen who out processed.
woohoo. i love my life......fucking bastards...